Just felt it to be so appropriate for so many of us busy, rushing-everywhere people today.
Friday, 12 October 2012
Slowing Down
Just felt it to be so appropriate for so many of us busy, rushing-everywhere people today.
Make a Mistake - Discover New Opportunities
Apart from that, I have to admit to having failed miserably on Tuesday and Wednesday. No walking at all. Then today, I made the unforgivable mistake of mixing up the times of my lesson. Instead of 1pm, I should have been in the classroom at 8am...
What do I learn from this? Be more careful when adding appointments into my calender. But perhaps more importantly, don't overload the calender in the first place.
I had been worried that this week would be a struggle with back-to-back appointments, classes and meetings from Monday till Saturday. Now, however, I have some free time. A window of extra time to take stock and build up my energy for the last push of the week. I know how much better I'll feel for some fresh air because I got out for 40 mins on Monday. In contrast to the reluctant struggle up the hill on the last walk I did, Monday's walk was much more positive - maybe something to do with staying on the flat path - maybe due to the fact I just felt happier. Either way, it did me (as my mother would say) the world of good.
So, despite having missed a class by mistake I'm happy to be able to take advantage of some extra time and get myself out for a spot of fresh air and exercise. For me, an unexpected opportunity; for my students, an early start to the weekend.
Sunday, 7 October 2012
But I don't feel like it today...
I'd like to say that after 10 minutes I was glad to have made the effort and I was benefiting from the fresh air. Instead, I was thinking how little time it takes to undo a fragile, newly developing habit. I shall have to start again from today.
As I write this, I'm feeling the knock-on effects of having been at my pc most of the day. The daily walk really is a very important thing, for both body and mind. Tomorrow is another day; I'll aim to get that walk in and manage it with a lighter, more willing heart.
Wednesday, 3 October 2012
A Public Holiday
Over breakfast, as is my wont, I settled down to soak up some more of my current book. So enthralling was the book, and so quiet was the house, I kept reading until 11am. The beak came when I was asked to drive my kids to and from places. In brief, I spent the public holiday completely NOT doing that which I'd intended to do. Apart from - and here I am pleased to share - my daily walk!!!
It was a glorious October day so using a slot between car journeys, I walked a different route from my usual. The sky was its best shinning sky blue, a few skimpy clouds majestically skimmed the horizon, a buzzard leisurely circled and glided above the treeline. Still feeling a bit under the weather from my cold, half an hour along the river was just right.
Today, however is a different story. The stuff I'd intended to do yesterday, now has to be squashed into 3 1/2 hours before I head off to teach. Getting the daily walk in will be a bit of challenge. Will report back tomorrow as to whether - or, better to say - how I manage it!
Tuesday, 2 October 2012
Daily Walk Commitment - Days 2 &3
Despite feeling distinctly under the weather yesterday, I got myself up and away from my desk and went for my walk. Nothing of great interest to report. The only moment of note (for me, anyway) was when I reached the point of "left for the longer walk / right for the shorter walk". I kept going left and benefited from the longer route.
One of many woodpiles along the way |
Today, it was somewhat easier to get myself out. I made a conscious decision to put my walking shoes on before doing anything else. I know that when I get caught up with stuff, it's easier to put off the walk. While walking, I pondered on how perhaps I'm beginning to construct a new habit. Perhaps I'm laying down the route for a new neural pathway in the area of my brain where the habit of staying in and sitting at my desk has been embedded?
I was also thinking of Autumns past. This time last year, I was out and about in sandals and t-shirt still. It was that weekend of 30 degree temperatures. Lovely! I remembered walks pushing a baby buggy while waiting for my daughter to finish her swimming lesson. The luxury of a quiet stroll with nothing more to consider than getting back to pick up my little swimmer and go home for supper.
With my daily walking, I want to focus on today and the details I see around me in that moment now. To truly soak up that moment and feel gratitude for my amazing environment. Invariably, I end up listing a number of things that I need to do as soon as I get home. Perhaps I need to add an additional goal to the daily walk - switch off and live in that moment.
Classic Autumn Colours |
Autumnal Abundance |
Sunday, 30 September 2012
Commitment
So. Here's the thing; being such a sedentary person (remember the multi-book reading habit), I'm beginning to suffer the effects - lower back pain, stiff & heavy legs, general poor cardiovascular fitness. Also, the general stress of DOING TOO MUCH (again another topic for another blog - and I'm sure I'm not alone when it comes to needing to look at that debate), causes an overload in my brain.
Solution? 20-30 minutes daily walk. A march up the hill at the back of our house and a steadily-paced walk over the fields. It really is a most delightful route. We live in an utterly breath-taking area - which conversely actually provides me the opportunity to take plenty of oxygen-rich breaths. I love it once I'm out and up the hill.
And the thinking I manage to do...Loads of thoughts. I love it! Today, the thoughts centered on coaching and mentoring for educators. But, how can I offer coaching and mentoring guidance if I can't follow my own advice?
Solution? Get a buddy or two to help me stick to my goal of taking a daily walk. In lieu of an actual walking buddy right now - hubby is out of action with torn ligaments - I thought of posting daily reports in FB. If I know people are aware of my commitment to action, I'm more likely to avoid loss-of-face by posting each day. Then I thought, that might get irritating for those with no interest in "walking with" me.
Solution? The blog post! Ideal - I'll post the link and anyone interested in checking up on my progress can pop by when then want. Brilliant, don't ya think?!
Now, I have an added incentive to maintain my daily walks. And while Autumn is spoiling me with such spectacular displays of colour, it's even more of a pleasure.
Stated Aim: to walk every day for 20-30 mins starting today.
Promise to self: will post a short insight into thoughts on walk and, most specifically, the fact that I did walk!
Time frame: 1 whole week (with the option to extend another week)
This is a personal experiment on how commited I am to my goal and how disciplined I can be in keeping to my promise.
Watch this space.....
Thursday, 12 July 2012
Will you still like me?
Then I'd be left isolated and discarded; out in the cold, rejected and unwanted. All because I had dared to express what I thought or felt. It's much better to stay quiet and not rock the boat, right? Yes. Absolutely. Keep the peace and everything will be alright. I'll get over whatever had upset me and move on. No harm done.
Since learning more "psychology stuff", reading about the topic for my studies and actually looking at my own behaviour, I'm realising the damage I do, not only to myself, but my close relationships by choosing this "don't rock the boat" strategy. I'm beginning to realise the benefits of actively choosing honesty over my personal fear.
Looking back, I can count numerous occasions where the fear of speaking my mind, expressing my thoughts and feelings, has lead to - guess what? - misunderstanding and disappointment! By not being honest up front, the other person with whom I've inadequately communicated has built an inaccurate picture of me and what I wanted.
Fortunately, help is at hand. As is my want, when I have a situation which needs attention, I buy a book. During my coaching studies, I have bought and read many books (see the list in my previous blog post). One of particular relevance to this fear of not being liked is Susan Jeffers' "Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway."
If I analyse my fear of "people not liking me", it equates to a fear of rejection, disapproval and possibly loss of image. This particular fear is what Susan calls "Level 2 Fear": it is not situation-oriented, but rather an "ego-based" fear. She writes: "Level 2 fears have to do with inner states of mind rather than exterior situations. They reflect your sense of self and your ability to handle this world." (page 12)
She goes on to describe level 2 fears as translating to: "I can't handle being rejected..."
Susan proposes:
Another book which offers me hope in conquering this fear is the one I'm currently in the middle of. In particular, the very first tool, designed to help with avoidance. I'm very happy in my comfort zone and do a lot of the things the authors point out as avoidance tactics which keep me safely in the zone. Could it be that my desire to not speak up and rock any boats is a way of staying inside my familiar comfort zone? It is too painful for me to face my fear and speak up. Although this chapter focuses on situations different to this particular fear, the tool to help overcome avoidance I suspect could be helpful. Another chapter of particular relevance is the one about "Find Confidence and Inner Authority".
It could be even more useful. Looking at when I avoid confronting someone honestly for fear of them not liking me, I see a close link to my relationship with people in authority. As the elder daughter, being quiet and amenable was a valued and rewarded behaviour. Especially when it came to keeping my seldom-seem father happy with me. It's a bit tedious, but true - we are significantly shaped in the first years of life. We pick up on the atmosphere around us. Our sense of self stems from this critical developmental period. So, we're unlikely to be able to identify when or how we became so fearful of something.
That doesn't mean we can't change our behaviours. It just takes time and patience with ourselves. There are so many resources out there to help us. Ultimately, though, it's our own action which will cause the changes to occur. This is something clearly demontstrated in Marshall B.Rosenberg's wonderful "Nonviolent Communication: A language of compassion."
"NVC" is a compassionate way of communicating and an ideal model for those of us who fear the results of what we say. Having read this (and my other coaching-related resources), I now believe I am as important and valuable as any other human being. That being true, my thoughts and feelings are as valuable as those of my communication partner. Therefore, I'm perfectly entitled to express them. The key is to do it in a respectful, considerate way. This takes A LOT of practice. But keep in mind, I am not responsible for how another person chooses to react to what I say. My responsibility is to speak honestly. To say clearly what I see, how I feel about it and what I want to happen as a result of our discussion. Here is a summary of how to use NVC. For more detailed information, go to the NVC website.
Dispelling long-held fears and changing deeply ingrained behviours are not easy things to do. It's a work-in-progress for me and with each small success, I'm cheered on to continue the fight and to move to a place of balanced-thinking and honest, healthy communication.
How about you?
Friday, 29 June 2012
Affordable Coaching for Freelance EFL Teachers
Photo: eltpics, @aClilToClimb |
Photo: eltpics, a ClilToClimb |
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Monday, 18 June 2012
Coaching for ELF Teachers - BESIG / TESOL France Symposium June 2012
The half hour talk I did went much better than I expected. Despite not getting across everything I wanted to in exactly the way I would have wished. Perfection is such an elusive goal. Luckily I'm not someone who needs to reach it very often. I was in a positive frame of mind, the music perked me up and the audience, spread around the lecture room were receptive and friendly. Above all, Roy very generously agreed to be my guest coachee!
Had to share this shot - simply silly expressions! |
This one is more like it - a real coaching session... |
And another thank you to Tom for being an excellent scribe. Quiet, unobtrusive yet observant and careful in his capturing of what Roy said. Thanks so much gentlemen.
Checking what Tom has written on the flip. Which option to focus on. |
This post is essentially a follow-up to that and the request for my slides and book list.
So. Here's the list of books I've read since beginning my Post Grad coaching course:
Man's Search for Meaning, Viktor E. Frankl (very moving and highly inspiring. An extraordinary story)
Time to Think, Nancy Kline ("Ease creates; urgency destroys" lady!)
More Time to Think, Nancy Kline
Coaching for Performance, Sir John Whitmore (The GROW model guy)
The Psychology of Executive Coaching, Bruce Peltier (heavy going; haven't finished it yet)
The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle (v.spiritual and absolutely worth reading if you rush around a lot)
Egan's Skilled Helper Model..., Val Wosket (just read part of those - want to finish it soon.)
Further Techniques for Coaching & Mentoring, David Megginson (not read all)
The Chimp Paradox, Dr. Steve Peters (an absolute must!)
Blink: The Power of Thinking without Thinking, Malcom Gladwell (thoroughly readable and highly fascinating)
Outliers: The Story of Success, Malcolm Gladwell (in the middle of it now. Brilliant!)
The Element: How Finding your Passion Changes Everything, Lou Aronica and Ken Robinson (excellent and utterly inspiring)
Personal and Leadership Development: The Foundations for Continuous Growth, Sean Reddaway
Procrastination: Why You Do It, What To Do About It Now, Jane B. Burka and Lenora M. Yuen - (a pair of professional procrastinators - they really know what they're talking about!!)
The Tools: 5 Life-Changing Techniques to Unlock Your Potential, Phil Michaels, Barry Stutz, (have read only the sample from Kindle. Will download when I've finished the 3 other books I've got on the go at the moment!)
The Magic of Metaphor: 77 Stories for Teachers, Trainers & Thinkers, Nick Owen. (The book from which I read The Grammarian story in my talk).
Emotional Intelligence, Daniel Goleman (a classic!)
The Games People Play: The Psychology of Human Relationships, Eric Berne, MD (another classic; if you can stick with his writing style and some outdated (in my opinion) attitudes, it's a really fascinating, insightful read).
Introducing NLP: Pyschological Skills for Understanding and Influencing People, Joseph O'Connor & John Seymour (I'd already read their NLP for Trainers a number of years ago - deeply helpful for me professionally. The authors write in a very accessible way)
And the three other books I shared with you on Saturday:
Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway, Susan Jeffers - If you're someone who worries a lot - or just from time-to-time - read this even if you don't read any of the others.
The Prosperity Plan: 10 Steps to Beating The Odds and Creating Extraordinary Wealth (and Happiness), Laura B. Fortgang (her Little Book of Meaning is a lovely read too!)
And of course our very own Duncan Foord: The Developing Teacher.
OMG. That's quite a long list. I'm surprised I've had time to do any work the past 10 months! Luckily I'm an avid reader.
Anyway, there you go.
Can't upload the slides from the talk on Saturday here so have put them on the ELTAS group page on Facebook. Am contemplating sharing the video I made of Roy's coaching session - not sure about that one though.
Maybe we'll make do with the photos above.
In closing, here's the text from my last slide: Whitmore's coaching "prayer"!
Saturday, 19 May 2012
Taking Control. Making Decisions
I came upon these thoughts when researching a story I've been using recently with my business English students and Springboard group. The story I shared comes from Nick Owen's book "The Magic of Metaphor: 77 Stories for Trainers..." The story itself, taken from The Alchemist, is about the secret of success lying in us using all our senses to truly appreciate the world around us, while at the same time taking care of the essentials in our lives. Something definitely worth exploring further. However, this blog is about how what I read after the success story connects with what I currently have on my mind.
By sharing these thoughts "out loud", I want to alert the universe so that it can conspire to help my wishes come true.
One wish in particular which I have just dared to formulate, is to return to the UK and continue my career in training and development within a large corporation. I wish to be back within a couple of hours driving distance of my extended family: my (aging) parents and in-laws, my sisters & brothers-in-law and their growing children; my cousins and their families with whom I so enjoy spending time. I simply want to return to my familial tribe. While gaining on that front, I also want to apply my skills and experience, gathered over the last 13 years of self-employment, to a new environment. I want to have the experience of being part of something bigger than just me. Hand-in-hand with my intrinsic needs, I also want to benefit financially. To finally have a regular, secure income: no more back-tax repayments, struggling to meet all the German social insurance payments and constantly running to refill my overdraft.
On the surface, taking into consideration current circumstances, this is highly unlikely to happen. My immediate family, husband, daughter and son, don't feel the same way. So I need some back up support from the aforementioned universe! That doesn't mean to say I don't accept responsibility for my own destiny - I'm certainly no pawn. I want to take control of my own future and decide how I want to spend the coming years. Don't get me wrong, I haven't been held captive against my will the last 16 years in Germany. I've enjoyed a happy, comfortable, varied life. I've been able to enjoy spending time with my growing children and build a home for us all here. It's something I've got on with because I didn't really have any other choice.
I do have choice. And I want to exercise my right to choose where I live and work.
Sunday, 1 April 2012
Inspirational
“Scotland is inspirational in many ways.” “How has Scotland inspired you?”
Where the conference took place: The SECC |
As clichéd as that may sound, I found it to be absolutely true. And what a friendly, approachable, welcoming lot the IATEFL crew are. On Sunday when I was unsure about where to go for the pre-conference associates’ dinner, my Twitter plea for information was answered by the President no less!
Springtime in Glasgow |
Colleague, Helen Strong, meeting in the concourse |
As well as conversing quite comfortably with the IATFEL President, I fell in with a number of renowned and highly respected ELT authors, with movers and shakers of the wider community, I chatted with representatives from the publishers, owners of international language schools. In other industries I could imagine the “famous” people being less approachable. At IATEFL, it’s much more a “we’re one big family” environment. Ultimately, everyone is a teacher and with that commonality at the core, building relationships and making connections is as natural as drinking gallons of coffee between the many talks and workshops during the conference!
Queuing for coffee |
Being an international conference, meeting teachers from around the world was also very exciting – I talked with teachers from Cameroon, Ghana, Serbia, Poland, Turkey, Wales (!). Talking with some of them reminded me of how privileged we are in Germany in terms of infrastructure (unlimited access to internet) and good pay. And all the many different accents floating around the SECC!! People talking sometimes in their native language but often using English to chat between nationalities. A brilliant example of ELF in action! Personally, I found it quite strange – in a good way – to know that no matter who I wanted to speak to, I was guaranteed they would understand me and be able to confidently chat back. A refreshing change for an English woman living in a foreign country
So what I am ultimately saying. Being at IATEFL Glasgow was exhausting, at times frankly overwhelming. Ultimately, though, I found it highly professionally organised, varied, informative, fun and utterly inspiring. If you were also there, how would you respond to a banner ad flashing up next to the departures screen:
“IATEFL is inspirational in many ways. How has IATEFL inspired you?”
Michelle.
Stephanie Ashford and I just before her and Tom's workshop |
PS: Here are some pictures from the week. Thanks to Mike Hogan for sharing on Flickr: http://flic.kr/s/aHsjyJ2D5y
Wednesday, 1 February 2012
Holding My Horses
I’m all a flutter. Thoughts are continually whizzing around my mind; ideas popping like firecrackers on new year’s eve. A slow churning of subtle excitement and anticipation – a few nerves too – accompanies me during the day. And keeps me awake at night (well, one night so far, if I’m honest!)
What’s going on, you may well ask…
Nothing earth-shattering nor particularly monumental. I volunteered to be part of my local teachers’ association. The difference this time (I’ve been on the committee team before) is that my role is to chair the group. My experience of those who have gone before gives me a great sense of responsibility. It is a role which requires management and leadership; commitment to doing the best for the association members. It requires creativity and forward-thinking; clear and transparent communication between committee team members and the wider membership.
I’m also discovering, fortunately in the early stages, it also requires patience and an understanding of the nature of the people who make up the membership. It requires me to “hold my horses”!
As a person who thrives on new ideas, looking for different ways of doing things, being creative and getting things done, I have to avoid riding roughshod over others. Thank goodness the chair is but one person among a group of bright, intelligent, knowledgeable people. People who hold a gentle restraining hand on me, while supporting other ideas with enthusiasm and willingness.
Personally, it is disconcerting and frustrating for me when I hear cautious voices. Those who question my ideas and present an alternative perspective. On one level, I understand the importance and validity of those voices; doesn’t stop me from feeling annoyed, irritated and frustrated, though!
Feeling a certain way about something is OK – I firmly believe. It’s how we deal with those feelings that is important. As I want this experience to be a personal developmental one, I set myself the challenge of behaving like an “adult” (those who familiar with transactional analysis will know what I mean!).
So, I will continue to indulge my penchant for idea storming. Then I will listen to those around me and accept that not all of my ideas will be possible to implement. I will value the judgment and wisdom of my team and work on mutually agreeable solutions. I will hold my horses back for a certain amount of time.
Do I sound like a Chairperson yet? I’m really looking forward to doing positive, useful and interesting things with – and for – ELTAS. I will keep an eye on my passion while not allowing it to be dampened too much.
There now, there’s that churning excitement in the pit of my stomach. Potential, I love it. The start of something new and improved. Let’s see what the team and I achieve together.
I’ll keep you posted!